The Power of Control

It’s Sunday at noon and usually by now I’m making lunch or a snack and have spent countless hours since getting up watching TV and on the internet. This Sunday morning, I decided to go back to the gym. I did get up and have coffee and a banana with peanut butter, but headed to the gym by 10:15 a.m. I did notice that the initial onslaught of January newcomers has died down (I haven’t been to the gym in a month) and it was pleasant for a change. I heaved myself onto the elliptical armed with music and set the timer to 25 minutes in “manual” mode. I hadn’t gained control of my breathing and was starting to sweat and on the second song on my Ipod, thinking I must be at least halfway through my workout, when I looked down and saw I had gone a whopping 4:13 minutes. WTH?! I’m way out of shape. Got my breathing back to where it should be and listened to the music. Kept telling myself “just go FIVE more minutes, you can do this,” and guess what? I did. I felt good after 25 minutes of sweating and breathing hard. I decided to also work my legs on the weights, which I haven’t done in a long time. Primarily, going back to the gym (and a new one at that) in January is always a little intimidating for me. Even though I could be most everyone’s mother in there (you know, the 20-somethings and teens), and have more lifting experience than they can imagine, I start to wonder what I’ll look like and that deters me. The group in there this morning was mostly my age or older and believe it or not, a bunch more out of shape than me, so I didn’t get that feeling. I worked my legs and felt more powerful than I had in a long time! Yay, getting back on track, I do think. I’m going to go tomorrow evening as well and work out my upper body. I hate Mondays at the gym and my gut tells me it will be crowded, but I’ll wait until 7 or so and go and we’ll just have to see.

I’m also realizing that for years I’ve eaten crap. Now, most of you are thinking, “ummm yeh, that’s probably why you are overweight,” but I didn’t realize the extent to which the kind of crappy food I’ve been eating. I’m vegetarian and that should make me healthy by default, right? Nope. I recently read “Fast Food Nation,” which was a lot different than I expected it to be. I was appalled. I was shocked. If I wasn’t vegetarian, I would be after reading that book. I’ve sworn off fast food for good and I’ve also decided to only eat mostly protein, veggies and fruits – things where I know they come from and what they are and not containing chemicals and fake flavors. Okay, okay at 46, I might be finally getting it. The experiment continues…..

The Evil of Girl Scout Cookies …..

Once I posted, I have done nothing but think of food. Weird. In all fairness, it’s been a stressful few weeks and then those darn Girl Scout cookies came out! Of course, last year, at the office before I decided to watch what I ate again, I had ordered five boxes from a co-worker’s daughter – they reared their ugly face this past week by coming in! Coming home from work and realizing that a 0% interest credit card I have was coming to the end of the introductory period and on the phone with the credit card company, a box of Samoas became my dinner for the evening. Arrgh!

I realize that there are worse things to turn to, alcohol, drugs, sex – food seems the least of the bad addictions. In reality, while putting something into my mouth and thinking I will feel better, in the end the food usually makes me feel sick (especially things like Girl Scout cookies) and I feel guilty, which is just stupid. I’m an adult and shouldn’t feel guilty over things I eat! All in all, I realize the mentality of it all, but some days the food issues seem bigger than I can handle.

This coming week is going to be dedicated to eating well. Fish, salads, some chocolate (because I can’t give that up) and being in control. After all, that’s when I’ll win the battle, right?

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